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I FIGHT THE ESSENCE OF YOU
By Alice Dunlap

Day to day and year to year I live my life on and on,
A wisp of time in a wind of yesterdays,
Yet it seems you still see my soul,
From a distance in another life and another dream,

I've followed my path and thought of you still,
And have to pull my self back into here and now,
And tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow again,
And then I sleep and you come to me whispering,

I wish I could finally work this through,
The longing and pain I felt so long ago,
As a young and bright eyed young woman,
Discovering a tragic young man who I thought was the world,

I believe that though the time has gone,
And I have made this life my own,
That suites my heart, my needs and cares,
You touch my soul with disruptive hands,

You know the same that I have known,
That our spirits twirl in a chaotic dance,
Of lessons not finished and words not said,
Oh no, though I fight the essence of you,

You come yet again in my dreams and once more,
I must tell you that I have no room in my world,
For suffering of spirit, the endless needing for you,
The struggles and silent rejection of heart,

You still envelop every aspect of me,
In those dreams and more dreams, could it be,
Is it me, am I simply the same gullible child,
That has all she requires yet sees something more,

In a mirage of spirit brought on by karma,
A touch of the mind though a word would slice,
The connection and yet it would be everything,
And all would be right yet I would cry,

I know that my eyes may not rest on your face,
In this life once more and I am thankful for that,
I know that we have dealings that must be addressed,
But not anymore in this existence I beg,

Don't come to me in my dreams I demand,
You injure once more which is why I implore,
No returns, no kisses, no invasions oh please,
For I can not guard as well in sleep,

I am dedicated and loving yet still I must learn,
In waking I push for this future this time,
When you slip in on another plain,
I feel that I turn on all that I love,

In the here and now, oh God, just go back,
The next life, the next time, we'll finish I swear,
I shall not suffer eternity with you at my heels,
Though I feel that you would have it no other way,

Tragic, distant connection seems stronger to me,
But I will see this end in whatever way,
That Spirit sees fit to bless and free me with,
Till then I will live and you will live your life,

I pray that you will stop plaguing my dreams,
These visits will stop for I have no need,
For a cowardly creature who would just off and leave,
A lonely young girl to move forward alone,

Which she did and she will for this and the next,
Till you come to her and look again to her eyes,
And play your part till it is finished you must,
And feel her pain as she would yours,

And love her in whatever way is meant...

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